Day 40: Rekindled

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And the Lord said to me, "The prophets prophesy lies in My name. I have not sent them, commanded them, nor spoken to them; they prophesy to you a false vision, divination, a worthless thing, and the deceit of their heart." Jeremiah 14:14

2 Timothy 1

For this reason I remind you to rekindle the gift of God that is with you through the laying on of my hands; for God did not give us a spirit of cowardice, but rather a spirit of power and of love and of self discipline. (vv. 6-7)


Going to my knees for one hour...will be back.

The hour went by quickly. Began praying through ACTS -Adoration, confession, thanksgiving, supplication. Prayed using the Lord's prayer as a guide. Lonnie called to say he was going to NL house...so glad I had been praying. I had 15 minutes more to pray.

Being silent I sensed the Lord say three things to me:
I will see NL home ...in my time,
my grace is sufficient, it is all you need
be ready next summer for my calling to be realized.

Tearfully I meditated on the words..."I am sufficient" Oh Lord, you are teaching us about your sufficiency in three areas:

Financially you are sufficient - $3000 for Lonnie to lead Africa trip this summer, Tax refund for me to go to Africa, Becca's support coming in at 1/2 point right now and out taxes to be sure we can finish her out., Liberty offering me the opportunity to teach 2 classes (which is unusual for a first time DLP professor), Liberty changing one of my classes so that I will become a specialist in a leadership course meaning I will have that course almost every term...Faithful load, Lonnie not hearing from 7-ll for start of part-time work. Your timing is perfect...maybe he doesn't need to do that but prepare our lives to transition by finishing the details of our home. Paid to coach Carol by NABA for a year.

Emotionally you are sufficient - Test me and know my anxious thoughts. You are teaching me that this is a weakness of mine. I am a worry wart and that will only harm me physically and emotionally. It is my area of weakness where I am open to the Deceivers lies and I allow Him to rob me of my joy in realizing your sufficiency. Emotionally you are allowing hurts from the past to be healed in my heart as we care for Nanny and Papa in our home. I pray he sees the man of God his son is. I don't know what the future holds but I sense there presence here is part of your emotional sufficiency for us...and for them. We will all have memories of caring. You will walk with me emotionally as I separate from family and friends here in the states.

Spiritual sufficiency - I didn't know 40 postings ago why I needed to do this blog. I only realized I needed, Oh my Abba, to draw closer to your heart. I didn't know what we were going to face, but you did and you knew I needed a spiritual rekindling. You knew I would need to recognize the tenderness of your heart towards us, your compassion and desire to be with us as Satan attacks and desires to rob of all the joy by focusing on the problem rather than what you are doing and how you are blessing. I needed oh so desperately to be close to you heart...so close I could hear your whisper, "Debbie, get on your knees for 1 hour...right now." Thank you for meeting me right here in our home...."Our missionary home" where I thought I would only use it to host missionaries and interns....I had no idea our Missionary home was the place you God would equip us to be your missionaries.

I praise you for the privilege to have drawn close to your heart this day.

Amen