Day 17: What?

My days are swifter than a weaver's shuttle. Job 7:6

...Let's just o ahead and be what we were made to be, without enviously or pridefully comparing ourselves with each other, or trying to be something we aren't. If you preach, just preach God's message, nothing else ... Romans 12:6 (MSG)


Lord,

Really, I do get it. There is something you created me to do...gifted me to do ... for your pleasure and to benefit your kingdom work. There is a "sweet spot" when I am doing it, I will sense you there and smiling and laughing. Pleased with me. But Father, I am having a difficult time distinguishing what that "sweet spot" might be. I know I enjoy teaching, creating programs, dreaming and thinking strategically about the next step and next way to encourage people to be growing in their relationship with you. I enjoying preaching and communicating. But there is so much more that I need to do that it all becomes blurred and I loose the joy of the gifting in the center of the hurricane of "have to do." As we look to Africa I wonder what will my "sweet spot of serving you" be? Why me? Why us? I see the passion in Lonnie's heart. I sense it in mine. I just don't know what it will be.

Time is going by so quickly. The shuttle is blurred and it is moving so quickly. I can't be sure we are accomplishing what you would desire us to accomplish by the end of each day. Life is hectic with a to-do list that is immense. Help me to see you in the moments of each day. To trust you that what I can accomplish are the things you desire. Help me to put aside what is not necessary according to your plan.

I sense your hand moving...weaving the tapestry of our life and beginning a new work...a beautiful work...I just don't know what it will look like...where it will be...how it will be woven....

What will James' future education look like? What is his "sweet spot"? What will Kelsey's first real job be and where? What are your plans for Michael? What will be there to help Becca finish school at LU? What will be the decision regarding Lonnie's job? What will his next phase in life bring him? What can we do to move towards your desire for our lives?

What? I don't know. But you Father know all things. That is your character trait that I praise you for this day...you know all things. Your ways are not my ways and I can trust the "what?" to you.

Amen